George drives George crazy. I cannot blame anyone else. All other people ever do is reveal my hidden craziness. The always present dark side of my people pleasing is my resentment. If I meditate without following up with obedience, I end up with spiritual pride. If I try to obey without the power meditation … More Good Ideas
Norm Cummings was my pastor at the time of my Dad’s suicide. I met with him and his wife Amy many decades after the suicide. I had the chance to share with them what the reality of life was in the Caywood household in which I grew up . That reality was about as different … More A Big Leap Forward
GUILT AND SHAME -Guilt and shame are two distinct ideas. Guilt is culpability and does not involve feelings at all. Shame is all feelings. When I am experiencing shame I am feeling less than. I feel that I somehow don’t measure up to other people or to my picture of what I should be. Shame … More Guilt and Shame
I recently had a talk with some of my WA state family. I said “In all my 80 years of living my negative self talk has absolutely never once told me the truth” . However it has always come to me in the same voice that my healthiest voice. That is confusing to me. I … More Negative Self Talk
The following ideas have helped me. The price I pay for the privilege I have of living in this incredibly enjoyable world, is the work I have to do to make the bad stuff work for me. I am in the world to care, not to cure. There is a difference between being childlike and … More Good Program Ideas 3
Peace With God…..The point of Romans is that we have peace with God. We are welcome in the presence of God. What we need is not the faith to be saved from Hell. That is such a negative perspective. We have been totally accepted, totally loved and that love and acceptance has been totally been … More Peace With God
There is a deep darkness in my soul. It threatens to surface in a blinding boil. It began when I was just a boy Betrayed by a mother to whom I was just a toy She could manipulate to in her kind of joy. I gave my heart to three religious efforts Missions that … More A Deep Darkness
