Oh my human friend you seemed so open and true. The pain. the agony the betrayal, I am so deeply sad and blue. I am preceded by Jesus who also was betrayed by a very close friend. That misdeed became my salvation and Heaven For the untrue heart I carry in my chest My God … More FALSE FRIEND

There were many things in my younger days in my younger That were lovely. The best surrounded My baby Ruthie. I used to run a few blocks foo take her for a walk. There were also things like ,my My Moms verbal community and my fathers vicious spanking. Around San Diego and with most of … More BETTER AND BETTER

Just now I got back a lot of my meds. They had been stolen from me many months ago one time when I was not home. I just happened to check a shelf while I was looking for something else, I was so grateful to find the meds. There is no mistake. They had been … More THANKS GOD

i AM TOLD THAT EINSTEIN THEORY TAUGHT US THAT AS THE SPEED OF LIGHT INCREASES MASS IS CREATED,iF THE SPEED OF LIGHT BEING EXCEEDED WOULD CREATE AN IMPOSSIBLE AMOUNT OF MASS, WOULD BE CREATED, Still the speed light has been exceeded many, many times over. At the time of the creation called the big bang … More A POOR MANS SCIENCE

Maybe you have heard the term nervous breakdown . That is what happened to my dad, One day he went to work as normal.work. In the after noon when I came home from school he was laying on the couch More or less with a crushed spirit. He never recovered. That is how I feel. … More Breakdown

Today is going to be a very hard day for me. Yet I know from my decades of living that As I fall asleep tonight I will feel fine and even joyful. I do not look forward to this day. It will be be painful and even humiliating. I have bedbugs. This will be the … More JOYFUL

I live in a very nice apartment but not over whelming one bedroom apartment for which I am very grateful. I live about a mile from the Pacific Ocean. and about 30 miles from The San Gabriel mountains. I have been here for a few decades now. I have been involved with my 12 Step … More Endurance

I had a birthday a few days ago. I turned 84m years ago, I see now that being 84 is way tougher than being 83. I have MY enemy is my own fears buried deep with in me from boyhood. Do not think that I have been remiss in working through my buried fears kike … More GETTING OLD

I am wanting to spend a lot of my time in these my elder years thinking about love. I think if God is love then love is God. I like thinking that way because it causes me to imagine that love is in some way eternal and absolute. It makes me want to see how … More GOD IS LOVE

Here is saying from my early days as a boy.Gods great gift to us is endurance. In response we I am-expected to display endurance day in and day out on every day we live as long as long we walk this earth. As a newborn I had serious whooping cough . My family put themself … More ENDURANCE