I did not get much sleep last night. I fell asleep about Two or so. and woke up 4 or so. You might think I would be in a rough mood but I did not. The abiding mood for me these days Is as the decades roll by a really good future appears to be … More LAST NIGHT

I have noticed something. People who have dealt with their very own inner heath tend to see the world as a basically good world In which they can prosper. People who have never succeeded in coming to a measure peace with their own personnel inner life have a hard time seeing a safe world into … More A GOOD OR BAD WORLD

Oh my human friend you seemed so open and true. The pain. the agony the betrayal, I am so deeply sad and blue. I am preceded by Jesus who also was betrayed by a very close friend. That misdeed became my salvation and Heaven For the untrue heart I carry in my chest My God … More FALSE FRIEND

There were many things in my younger days in my younger That were lovely. The best surrounded My baby Ruthie. I used to run a few blocks foo take her for a walk. There were also things like ,my My Moms verbal community and my fathers vicious spanking. Around San Diego and with most of … More BETTER AND BETTER

Just now I got back a lot of my meds. They had been stolen from me many months ago one time when I was not home. I just happened to check a shelf while I was looking for something else, I was so grateful to find the meds. There is no mistake. They had been … More THANKS GOD

i AM TOLD THAT EINSTEIN THEORY TAUGHT US THAT AS THE SPEED OF LIGHT INCREASES MASS IS CREATED,iF THE SPEED OF LIGHT BEING EXCEEDED WOULD CREATE AN IMPOSSIBLE AMOUNT OF MASS, WOULD BE CREATED, Still the speed light has been exceeded many, many times over. At the time of the creation called the big bang … More A POOR MANS SCIENCE

Maybe you have heard the term nervous breakdown . That is what happened to my dad, One day he went to work as normal.work. In the after noon when I came home from school he was laying on the couch More or less with a crushed spirit. He never recovered. That is how I feel. … More Breakdown

Today is going to be a very hard day for me. Yet I know from my decades of living that As I fall asleep tonight I will feel fine and even joyful. I do not look forward to this day. It will be be painful and even humiliating. I have bedbugs. This will be the … More JOYFUL

I live in a very nice apartment but not over whelming one bedroom apartment for which I am very grateful. I live about a mile from the Pacific Ocean. and about 30 miles from The San Gabriel mountains. I have been here for a few decades now. I have been involved with my 12 Step … More Endurance

I had a birthday a few days ago. I turned 84m years ago, I see now that being 84 is way tougher than being 83. I have MY enemy is my own fears buried deep with in me from boyhood. Do not think that I have been remiss in working through my buried fears kike … More GETTING OLD